Should I?
What if I didn't want this in the first place?
What if it was you who wanted all this...
I didn't want this.
I think you are too selfish. Thinking about yourself.
And not others.
You didn't even bother asking me if I am still happy.
Tell you what, I am not.
These smiles? These laughs?
Oooh they are fake.
All fake.
I am fake.

Didn't used to be like this.
I want to go back.
The old times.
The sweet times.
But you just had to come back and take me with you.
Didn't you? I wish you never came back.
Too late now, isn't it?
And now you keep telling me I should be happy. For all the things you have given me.
I repeat. I didn't want it. I never wanted it. You should take it back.
Or maybe stop making me express my feelings because it's not going to be what you expect anyways.

When will I fin my happiness? When will I be happy? Or maybe I just wanted to feel this way. T___T

Labels: argh, MMK, tristesse