Well, I guess after a long long time ngayon lang ulit ako naka blog. I miss blogging. Pero hinid talaga mawala sa isip ko yung Diary ko eh! Paano na siya? Ano naman ang maiisusulat ko sa kanya kung may blog ako?! Pero minsan kasi wala langtalagang nangyayari sa buhay ko eh.

Ayun, delete ko na naman ang Twitter at Tumblr ko. Biglaan lang. Naisip ko lang kung gusto ko talaga magkaroon ng magandang grades aalisin ko muna lahat ng distractions diba? Kaya ayun. Eto blog na lang at FB at FS ang natira. Actually, hindi na counted ang FS. Hindi ko naman yun ginagamit eh.

Parang wala na ring kuwenta kung mag kaka BlackBerry ako eh. Saan ko nanaman upload?
Actually, naisip ko puwede naman mag ka Tumblr ulit. Mga pictures lang ang i-upload. Pero sa takdang panahon, hinid pa ngayon.

At hinding hindi ko delete ang FB ko no! As in!

Nag simula na pala ang PBB at Nagsimula Sa Puso, yun lang ang aking papanoorin! Haha.
GoodBye, Twitter and Tumblr.

Goddbye.

Labels: argh, mad, updates

I seriously need to take him off as my friend 'cause I do not think there is any point to be honest! He is too secretive pati photos or blogs di pwede ma view.
Pero cute siya infairness

Labels: argh, frustrations, lurve

Wala talaga akong tiyaga magapayat pero after seeing Beauty's pictures on her 18 birthday, it made me want tp be as thin as her talaga. Come to think of it malapit na iyon. Two years na lang!
Pero I shall think about this Christmas muna. I have exactly 6 months and ten days na mag papayat! Isang malaking kalokohan at pressure at the same time. Pero I also have to think that for every success comes with great sacrifices. Kaya okay lang kung mag hirap akong mag bike and mag diet.
I am 69KG na my target it 65 and below. I think it is possible to lose 2KG a month... So next month (July 7, 2009) I have to be 67KG or else I am not going to achieve my target weight talaga by December :(

Labels: argh, dilemma, frustrations, futuramas, vanity, wishlists

I don't hold grudges kasi talaga. Kasi mostly I just tend to forget the reason why I was mad at someone. Kaya sometimes I don't bother remembering them 'cause I know that was past. There's no point crying over spilt milk. However, I just have to share my opinions and thoughts to what happened today.
Oh shit. I was gonna write about it, but I totally forgot!
All I know was I did not like what Mom has been saying. I even forgot what she aaid to be honest. That was the reaaon I went upstairs to write about it pero what is thw point? I flipping forgot about it *laughs*.
Karma is my bestfriend. It'll come back around. Whatever she did to hurt my feelings.

Labels: argh, dilemma, frustrations, mad, MMK

I was in the middle of reading about World War 2 on the internet because I just saw Saving Private Ryan. Which of course I thought it was a great movie. It made me realized how brave the soldiers are fighting for war, either they die or kill others.
Tapos yun nga nagbabasa ako tungkol sa war ng biglang nag ring yung phone ko. I heard my phone ringing and I forgot it was downstairs. I did not bother going down to get it because I thought it was my mom ringing me. So I went to her room to ask her and she said it was not her.
It made me curious naman. Who in the right mind would call me at 2:00 in the morning!
Went downstairs to get my phone and it was A. I did not want to ring him back because I could not be asked to be honest. But he called me again but this time, I was contemplating whether to answer his call or not.
But I did.
He said he was at his friend's house having a bbq party for tomorrow and he is sleeping next to Ben Cockin.
Okay, Ben? He was the one who made that "finger lick" (tongue in between your pointing finger and middle finger) straight at me! And I sit in front of him in most of my exams.
I heard him calling out my name at the background. It was funny but embarassing. I do not think you'd understand but please just pretend you do.
And A kept rambling on about me not talking to him and that he does not have any credit. I told him I was sleepy and I am going to sleep.

Seriously worrying and sleepy right now

Labels: argh, conversations, dilemma, frustrations, laughtrip, lurve, school life, tristesse

Mag say goodbye muna ako. On Hiatus muna for a week kasi ang daming exam ko sobra. Eh half of them I didn't bother revising especially French and Maths. Scary ang Geography and I am gonna revise tge whole day bukas.
-Walang Paysbuk.
-Walang Prendster
-Walang nood ng Asian Dramas
Eh na fefeel ko na ang withdrawal symptoms eh. Hindi ko ito kaya.
Concentrate muna ako sa Chemistry and Geography.

Naawa ako kay Hidden Kho kanina nung binuhusan siya ng tubig sa Senate.
To be honest, I don't quite understand why they make a fuss aboit the whole sex video and stuff. Masyadong OA yung dinala talaga sa Senado. Aba, OA na talaga masyado. Okay lang kung may namatay. Eh wala naman eh.
Hindi ko din gets yung pagtawag kay Hidden Kho ng "baboy" as if naman hindi pa sila nakanood ng porn diba?! Hello?!!! Or baboy ba yung pag kuha ng video?
As if naman din hindi gumagawa ng homemade sex videos ang mga young couples like them ano.
Hay naku.

(:

Labels: argh, procrastinating, wishlists

Bank Holiday again! And I don't have any class the whole week :)
As I am going to town this Tuesday. I am also considering buying some makeup to add to my kikay kit that I only started early this year. As superdrug has some offers, I might go there and buy.
However, I'm still thinking what to buy. I just bought this lip butter for £2.50! It's ridiculously small and I don't lile it very much. Pero kung malaman ni mommy I am sure magagalot siya na binili ko tapos ayoko pala. So uubusin ko muna. It's CoConut and Shea Butter! Urgh. I'm gonna use it everyday para madali maubos. I am planning to buy an eyelash curler. Yung pinaka mura ofcourse and kohl eyeliner. Pero meron pa kasi ako eh. Ewan. I could not decide. Tapos planning to buy liquid eyeliner kasi mine is running out! And I want some clear coat nail polish. Hay naku. Ewan. Siguro I'll stick n lang to what I really need. Which is Eyelash curler. Tapos I do not need mascara kasi I still have pa naman eh.
It amazes me how mum didn't charge me for buying my lip butter. Pero I am sure she'll charge me kung I'll buy mascara. My mascara is expensive kasi eh. For me ha. About £8! And only lasts for one month. And may utang pa siya na £350 which I doubt will all go to my prom so I don't think she'll pay it back. Or maybe she'll pay it wgen we go home as my shopping money :) Can't wait to shop sa Philippines!
Yun lang po. I think I am going to look for my Vaseline Lip thing kasi na miss ko siya :( Nakakasuka ang Lip Butter ko ngayon eh.

Labels: argh, vanity

Pissed off right now. Ikaw ba naman ay hindi maiinis sa nangyari today!!
Today, I wore my I=YOU shirt from MANGO tapos as I was walking sa corridor

Girl: "I=YOU"?! I equals you and you equals I? Is that some sor of a love equation or something?! *laughs*
Me: Dumbass

Too bad I didn't see her face kasi nakatalikod na ako e. Well, obviously bobo niya no. EQUALITY po ang message, nalahat tayo ay pantay-pantay.
Tomorrow I might wear my racerback or H&M top. Ewan.
Gonna revise na and I'll try not to doze off.

Labels: argh, conversations, procrastinating

Fricking tired from revision. Imagine, two whole days of revising and I have to do it for the whole week. Not that nagrereklamo ako or ano pero my brain hurts like hell. Grabe, I am sure naman may chances na ako ng 5 or more A-A* diba? Aja!
Basically, you decide what subject to revise, how you revise, when you revise. Although, walang teacher. Pero youcould go and ask them naman e. In your own time lang naman.
Nung Monday, (kasi I have an early lunch kasi) I dropped by my Physics class tapos

D:Why aren't you in my Physics lesson?!!
Me: I am doing that study leave thing.
D: Why did you not tell me beforehand? Why was I the last one to know?! As always.
Me: Sorrry! Can I please have what you are doing today? Please?
D: You are missing alot here, Charlene.

According to Ivo he was shouting and everything. He was mad that I did it. Oh my God.
I just don't get it yeah 'cause when I'm in my Physics class, he always tells me off. In addition, they all (classmates) tell
me to shut up. But Ivo said Physics was quite boring daw without my mouth. LOL.
To be honest, it has been quite good. My revision and stuff... Especially that Yannick and Ryan are doing it. Not that I have a crush on them or something. Cute lang sila.
We got our YEAR 11 pictures! OMG It was on the way to the dinner hall. Everyone saw it. Everyone looked fine. Except me. Talagang I was not smiling. Sa lahat ng pictures na pinili. Yun pa yung I WAS NOT SMILING?! oh joy. While I was looking at it HE was like next to me. Tapos HE did not even say hi! Talagang we were like inches away. Tapos HE did not even looked at me. But HE was looking at my picture though. Next time ako na mah start nang conversation talaga. Kaysa naman WHoLELIFE kami hind mag iimikan. That is just sad

french exam tomorrow.

Labels: argh, lurve, school life

I just received a text message from Mikee saying I have to vote for her friend, Kristelle. I do love Mikee to bits pero I don't know ger friend. Let alone vote for her and waste my precious credit. ^___^ Ihave a new friend today, she's called Keith. Maybe not a friend, more of an acquaintance really. Anyhoo, I saw her go online, I thought I might talk to her because I was sort of bored. I found out we have the same likes in food. ^____^ And same problem sa weight. *laughs* Though I feel really bad today because I binged and ate six siopaos.. Hay buhay TT___TT So bukas ko ulit i-try ang diet ko. Tagal pa naman ang pasko e. Sa pasko talaga ang deadline ko.
Kakaapos lang din nag text ng Friend ko. Nagalit siya at bakit daw nag text ako... 1:48am na kasi. Akala ko gising pa siya. *laughs* sabi niya matulog na raw ako.
At kung friend kita sa Facebook. Yung nag comment sa Shoutout ko ay Manager sa CareHome na pinagtratrabahuan ni mommy ^_____^
In fairness kasi maganda yung quote ko.
Nainis pa ako today dahil may nagsabi daw na "unfriendly" ako. At nag judge pa siya ha. Hindi ko naman alam talaga kung sino siya. Alam ko lang name niya. Nevertheless, she shouldn't judge me because I don't know what she looks like anyways. And if ever may nag wave sa akin sa town or whatever I can't really see them because of my eyesight.
Hay naku bad trip.
Makatulog na nga. Or mag muni muni pa ako. Minsan parang JD na ako sa Scrubs. Palagi akong may daydream.

Labels: argh

Currently waiting for my aunt to go online.. I've been waiting for almost an hour. Still, she is not online. I hate waiting. I am just not the sort of person that has a lot of patience. I'm going to check again after this post, and if she is still not online. I might just have to go to sleep.
I made some changes in my blog, can't you see? Hope you find it way better ^___^
Prom is just around the corner *dances* and I just realized that my prom dress is P19,179/£270. No way I am paying for that with my own money.
Mom said she's going to open a bank account for me ^____^ this Saturday. The only bank open is Natwest. It's okay, I like Natwest. She also said that she'll deposit the whole £100/P7110 every month. Sabi niya I will only get £5/P355.50 a week which I clearly disagreed. I told her that I can spend how much money I want kasi in the end ako ang malulugi kung wala ako magagasto sa Christmas. Nag sabi pa ako na sana doblehin niya ang ma ipon ko. *laughs* I doubt though.
I'm not gonna go all hyped up about it and just continue thanking God.

Labels: argh, dilemma

Should I?
What if I didn't want this in the first place?
What if it was you who wanted all this...
I didn't want this.
I think you are too selfish. Thinking about yourself.
And not others.
You didn't even bother asking me if I am still happy.
Tell you what, I am not.
These smiles? These laughs?
Oooh they are fake.
All fake.
I am fake.

Didn't used to be like this.
I want to go back.
The old times.
The sweet times.
But you just had to come back and take me with you.
Didn't you? I wish you never came back.
Too late now, isn't it?
And now you keep telling me I should be happy. For all the things you have given me.
I repeat. I didn't want it. I never wanted it. You should take it back.
Or maybe stop making me express my feelings because it's not going to be what you expect anyways.

When will I fin my happiness? When will I be happy? Or maybe I just wanted to feel this way. T___T

Labels: argh, MMK, tristesse

I lost my voice. Just now. It's quite annoying really. I mean "hello?!", like it's my French Oral Exam this Friday. And I lost my voice. Nice. I just want to blog about what happened yesterday.


First appointment was Geography..
Miss said I am aiming towards an A because I got a freaking A* in my coursework. I just have to work on my exam style technique questions.
She also recommended me to buy this revision guide. It was only £6. It was not that bad. She said I was a very hard working student and I am very hard working.
It was quite annoying though when Mom mentioned about me spending too much time on PC.
Miss was nice enough and said I don't have to revise now. She said I should start revising in Easter holidays.

French was the same thing. I was hard working and aiming for an A. He said I need to practice for my next Oral Exam.
That was about it really. Nothing much.

Biology was exactly the same. Aiming for an A. She said I am talkative and sometimes I don't finish my work. But overall, my school work is an A.

Maths was exactly the same. Miss said I can aim for an A. She also said I was a star. :D

Physics was exactly the same however this time I had a low grade. A C grade :| I was not really bothered about it. I know I can improve it and move up to a B. If I work really hard. Mr. Dench mentioned about people that kept telling me to shut up.
He was really angry about it.

Chemistry was same thing.. Aiming for an A.

English was aiming for B :D

* * *

After school today I went on Facebook and talked to my classmate.
I asked him why he always tell me to shut up. He said because I was really noisy and just talk about load of crap.

Flashback:
Every day in Physics there is not a day that I haven't been told off for talking.
Like everyday they'd tell me to shut up.
It all started when I moved place.
My classmate next to me told me to shut up.
"Shut up, Charlene"

After that, every one started saying that. It was quite annoying. Kahit na hindi ako nag sasalita sinasabi nila iyan.

That's why I asked my classmate if he was actually serious. And he said he was. So imma try my hardest to not talk too much.

And I think I got my lesson. Because I lost my voice :(

Labels: argh, happy, school life

Did I tell you that I cannot wait for my glasses?
Did I mention how scared I am for my French oral exam?
Did I slip in to our conversation that I don't want to go to my Parent's Evening.

Everything seems to be repetitive anyways.
Life for me is like a conveyor belt. You know what is going to happen next because you've been doing it for ages.
day
by
day
by
day
by
day...

* * *

01:10AM

Sheiße.
I know it's way past my bed time. I should be asleep by now. But to be honest I am nowhere near sleepy.
After blogging about 6PM-ish I was feeling a bit dizzy and decided to go to sleep. More like nap really. Then I just woke up like about 12AM. So know I don't feel tired or sleepy but after this blogging I am going to try an go to sleep :)

I quickly tan downstairs and eat because my stomach was rumbling. I ate oatmeal and some sardines :P

Anyhow, I am quite annoyed because my money hasn't arrived yet :( like, we applied last three months ago and still they haven't replied. Yet.
So I am telling mom to ring them up.

I am also going to look for a summer job.
A job.

Asa naman.

xx,
CJ

Labels: argh, chillaxing, futuramas

I don't get why she thinks that the main reason I had my eyes checked is because my classmates did it too.
Well she is wrong.
I am happy that I'll get my glasses soon. Matter of fact I am crying right now. I knew she was gonna ask her, the opticians person, if the main reason was me spending too much time on computer because I know that mom will either ban me from using computer for life or just tell me off when we get home.
I was happy when the lady said "no". It was because I was growing and it was in the genes. I knew it wasn't the cause of computer anyways. My physics teacher told me.
I am just sad because she didn't even think that this was very important for me. I don't think she even cared. At all.
Oh God, thanks for giving me this life. I love every bit of it. Heavy sarcasm there.


It'll come back around.
Two more years.

Labels: argh, futuramas, tristesse, wishlists

I hate it when my mother makes me do some revision. Ok, as if naman I have bad grades and everything. Pero I hope naman that she understands that I am reliable for my own actions. And if I do fail my exams it I the fact that I haven't revised and that is my fault. That's why I want to revise but I don't want her to keep tellin me to revise. I'm old enough to do whatever I want.
Com to think about it here's only two more years left before I move out. And yes I am moving out. Whether they like it or not. Could not possibly wait.
No more nagging. No more rules.

Labels: argh, futuramas, procrastinating, wishlists

Physics was surprisingly awesome today!

Not because I like Physics, it's because we got both practicals right.

1. Finding the rule of moments.
Moment= Force x distance from pivot.

It's amazing because I got it spot on!!!
Like F1 x X = (F2 x Y) + (F3 x Z)
Yeah!!! So happy. I didn't not expect to get it right though because I was not in
the mood of doing Physics (and will never be.)

2. Find out how many grams are there in 8oz.

We nearly got it right! I got 255 whereas the true value was 257!!
I wanted to scream. Well, I didn't expect we got it right because there was
only 8 weights available for the whole class. And I didn't even bother to get one.
So, I had to wait for the other group to finish before I can do the practical.
And we had 4 results!(more than everyone.)

When Mr. Denchfield (Physics Teacher) revealed that I was closer to the true value than anyone else, Sam, a classmate, said I got the results from someone else.
The mere fact that I WAS THE ONLY ONE with that result suggests that I DIDN'T GET IT from anyone else.

Silly person. A liar too.

I was so pleased of myself today :)

Oooh, and before I left the class I had to ask Mr. Denchfield what class did he just had before us. He said year 13. He kept asking me "WHY"? like 10x before I reached the door. But I kept saying "Nothing".
And he said he will ask his year 13 to come and talk to me.
WATEVVER

The real reason I wanted to ask him is I have a crush on someone in his year 13 class. I named him "Amhir" beaus he is Indian. SO I thought if he was in year 12 and he's going to be year 13 next year, I will still see him around school.
SO maybe, if I take physics for year 12 and he's year 13 I'll prolly see him in my classes *blush*

But, Mr. Denchie said he's year 13. That means he's leaving this year.
And no point in taking Physics for my options.(I wasn't going to anyways.)

Handing my application form tomorrow!
And the deadline's on Friday!
I was gonna give it today but there was an interview.
Therefore, I couldn't enter the room.

Silly.
HAHA

Labels: argh, happy, laughtrip, lurve, school life