Lately I feel depressed. I know most people will think na ako'y hindi talaga bagay maging depress kasi ako naman ay laging nakangiti.
Maybe because I just could not take the idea of losing something that you waited for a long time. I thought it was going well, that I could keep it forever. Then suddenly, someone takes it away from you.
How would you feel?
Siyempre emotional breakdown ako. It felt as though someone tore out my heart. (O.A. Grabe!) But it is so true. At first, I didn't know how to deal with it. I never do really, I just end up all quiet and stuff. Then I realized I've been expressing my feelings that way. I'm so fed up na. I'll just continue to live my life. But talk less to my parents. Punong puno na talaga ako. I can't take it anymore. Wala na sigurong bond na talaga. How many times I tried naman wala ding nangyayari. All ends up as me being O.A and makulit. As I said, bakit ko pa ipag pipilitan ang sarili ko sa tao naman ayaw sa akin. Eventhough parents ko sila I feel that they don't want me.

I hate my life.
Should I die, let it be soon.

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